Since having breast cancer and hitting 40 I feel like I'm at a crossroads in my life. I'm not sure if it's age or a combination of recovery and learning to understand my body again. Cancer I suppose makes you lose trust in your body a bit, and living beyond cancer means every pain or twinge is a potential threat.
For me a big thing is my hair, at the time I was prepared to lose it as I was focussed on getting through treatment but I had no idea of the impact it would have on my self confidence. I have always had thick hair and I believed it would grow back thick and fast, but my hair regrowth has been a struggle. Don't get me wrong I'm grateful for what has grown and I bleached it in the summer for a change and to help disguise thinness. It helped give me the confidence to go out without a wig or a scarf. I'm trying to embrace shorter hair but it still doesn't really feel like me. This is where my style comes into it, some times I put an outfit together and it just doesn't go with the hair! I know that sounds funny but it's true. That's why I'm taking time to really look at my wardrobe and figure out what I truly enjoy wearing, what suits my lifestyle and as well as my hairstyle. I'm sure the confidence will come it's all part of the healing process. I'm reflecting on the year and hope that a new version of me will look forward to embracing 2024.